I didn't read the post that gave rise to your apology, but I applaud your willingness to apologize in public as the offense you mentioned was done in public.In case he isn't reading, I would suggest you PM Doyle to see if he has access to send Tom a message. I don't know if it works, but you may try to find a post from Tom and send him a pm in case it arrives in his email box. You sound like me from a few years ago. I banished myself for at least 5 years due to my own attitude that didn't reflect well on what I consider to be my true self. Thankfully, some of the jerks that always got to me are no longer on Acts, so that makes it easier. However, I also planned at the onset of my return to be kinder, gentler than I was before under another pen and also from my real name. Sometimes, absence from the situation is what is needed.