I too have been through periods when I seriously contemplated suicide. Both times it came down to how could I leave my children with such a burden. I decided that either I would climb out of it with God's help or die trying. Ministers, especially pastor's,are indoctrinated into a belief that to step aside equals failure. We all know that is false, yet how many of us have stayed in the pulpit when we knew we should have walked away “Hell will be filled with people that didn’t cuss, didn’t drink, and may even have been baptized. Why? Because none of those things makes someone a Christian.”